之前的之后！！

2008/11/23 雨天
最近过的舒服，因为找到了酒店。不用再去烦那些无聊的事情，但是，钱就不够用了，不知为何钱会不够用，也许自己花太多了，也许！！昨天做工的时候，做了不该做的事情，然而今天没去上班，有时候，我都会想为什么我存不到钱，真的很后悔小时候没存钱，如今要去走走，玩都是一个问题。
过多两天，她就要回去了，从她的对白中，我觉得她不会再来了，我能做什么呢？我无能，因为我超过预算了。咳！！！只能默默承受她的离别…….假装多好，我只想在拥有一秒，继续等待还是逃…….
看来，今天会好睡也要好好的睡一番，至少我不用去想，不用去烦。 (@.@)

2008/11/28 Rainy day
Last few day really stress, stress about all the assignment. Really pressure work with a team that does not want to care all things, sometimes I really hope that I can do all the assignment but I’m not so good at English. Talk with Indian housemates with English, really hard and uncomfortable. Now a day, all things are English, without English people will look down upon you.
Today really happy, although she did’t talk with me in directly its enough already, because our friendship is still remain average and the important things is she did’t hate me. Leave some comment on her blog, hope she will write something inside but not to delete it….1o1

2008/12/06 sunny day
Unexpected day for me….when I pick up the phone that is calling from my closest buddy. He told me to accompany him to go for a walk because he wants to walk around B.Bintang!! Apart from that, he also want me accompany him to go G.Highlands. It is better to me because this few day I was pressure for my assignment, presentation and personal things.
I did’t too much and I quickly pick up my things and bath for a while then going out. It’s an unexpected day….really….after I reach there, his friend calling him telling he that, she cannot going out because of raining. So we go out to have a drink with some talk. At there, we talk many about our latest cert friend. A while later, I go to his aunt house and type my blog, after blogging I decide to go back home doing assignment. But I’m take a wrong bus to G.Klang…..really damn, have to waste money again, but things started to happen…..
I see many people surround the victim at the scene and starting a fight. I stop at there and go out to see anything I can help but at the moment I also feel so frightened and with some anger that comes from my heart. Why Malay people like to fight, is it their lifestyle and culture, but no one can deny that it is their culture and lifestyle. Really feel pity for the victim, but in any ways really hope one day all Chinese and Indian can be together co-operate to each other then wrack all Malay, amitabha, hope the day comes and not so…..if comes world war three is happening.

之前！！

2008/11/17 雨天
忽然间，觉得很压力，压力是因为学院的功课。这几天想了很久，是否我之前做错了很多事情？很奇怪的事，为什么人做错的时候就不会反省呢？反而会说我们或讲我们，有时候我很不甘心，不甘心为什么有些人错了对都要批评我们，很想问你们错了有为自己着想吗？
我承认我很闷，我很闷是因为我有为自己的将来着想，我不适合在这个时候过平淡的日子，因为我不是有很多的钱，虽然我有钱但不比你们多。有时候觉得世界很不公平，为什么我会遇到这样的遭遇。在佛的观念，我是不是在前世所修来的（因）呢？或者我在制造（因）呢？我有时候都会问自己，我所得到的是否恨知足长乐，无忧无虑，自由自在？
有时候和朋友甚至兄弟分享的时候，我多会给他们好的评语，无消极的答案以及经验。对我来说，如果我给了他们这些想法，他们会否像我这样呢？带着幸福以及快乐的笑容面对朋友，心里其实是很失落的。我甚至给自己写评语，告诉自己也提醒自己，世界上还有些人比我跟无助跟无奈，为什么我会为了小小的事情而烦呢？说了都觉得很好笑。或许我给我自己太大的压力了吧，也许我想太多了吧@@
做了不该做的事情，想了不该想的事情。这不是我的风格也不是我的态度，或许我给我自己太大的压力了吧%%很想说我真的很累了，不想了，但是我能怎么做，有谁能帮助我呢？


2008/11/20 阴天
这几天过的很烦，烦学业，金钱和自己的事情。不知道为什么最近花钱花的太过分，还班费，吃的，喝的以及出街的零用钱。听学院的朋友说，我们的功课被扣分了，真的很伤心也很失望，伤心的事，是为什么我不能做到最好，失望是因为团体的关系，或许我要求的太多了吧！也许我不应该要求太多。
发信息给了（— —），写了很多对不起，觉得自己辜负了她，或许我不该想，或许我的缘分还没到，或许我害怕？刚刚很惊讶，惊讶（— —）打来，从（— —）口气中，觉得（— —）生气了，也对，也好。我无能为力，玩不起！！哈哈……..
顺其自然，跟着时间走，随着心情跑。该不该这样说呢？忽然间觉得自己比任何人越来越远，好像呆在角落，无人帮助，无人指导。听着同样的歌曲，唱着同样的曲子，忽然间很想回到妈妈的怀抱，也很想念妈妈的温馨以及体贴的呵护。
下午的时候，接听朋友的来电，朋友告诉了我，或许他独自的来吉隆破，很期待他的到来也很期待当天的日子。发泄……..这就是我的本性，除了吃，喝，玩，乐，最期待的是酒精的影响。对我来说，醉了什么就不用去想，什么都不用去烦。这就是我的生活，简单，容易以及容易明白。
或许我太天真了！也许我二十岁了但是思想还是停留在十八岁吧！！！