Total 7 paper that i should resit.....if not cant go 2nd year!!!!
Damn sad!!!
Monday, March 9, 2009
！醉侧壁！
刚刚和家人去吃饭，遇到了（p-p）觉得很尴尬，尴尬不是什么问题！
问题是为什么我和她没话题，平时多话的我忽然脑海一片空白@.@
不知道（p-p）会对我有别的看法吗？
很烦！真的很烦！！
前几天真的很开心，开心是因为没时间烦别的东西。去找舅舅，朋友，最后是上网。上meetoto.com玩啊玩，玩到半夜，在网上里面居然认识了一位女孩。
“人生是一场简单的连戏剧，每个演员都会遇上不同的角色，不同的剧本。要融入某些剧本是一件很难的事情，演员们都得观察四周围，环境的影响以及不同的天气。身为人，我们就得从每个不同的方式，来完成一部好戏！！” 张子庆笔^^
问题是为什么我和她没话题，平时多话的我忽然脑海一片空白@.@
不知道（p-p）会对我有别的看法吗？
很烦！真的很烦！！
前几天真的很开心，开心是因为没时间烦别的东西。去找舅舅，朋友，最后是上网。上meetoto.com玩啊玩，玩到半夜，在网上里面居然认识了一位女孩。
“人生是一场简单的连戏剧，每个演员都会遇上不同的角色，不同的剧本。要融入某些剧本是一件很难的事情，演员们都得观察四周围，环境的影响以及不同的天气。身为人，我们就得从每个不同的方式，来完成一部好戏！！” 张子庆笔^^
Friday, March 6, 2009
Next heaven!!!
Today class cancel, going to DKABA hall waste time only....before going college....i had a message from a girl......(pig pig)from klang asking me about the college enquiry and college open day.....really surprise because already long time didn't receive her message.......
Hearing from she say that her boy friend break up with her, I'm a bit happy because I'm waiting for her for so long time, I'm also hope she can study same college with me,can see her every time than OK already for me!!!!
My problem got a little bit same with her, all is couple false, couple hanging around with other admirer......why this kind of things happen?
what the hell.....if you love the person then both of you be together and forever.....if not why be together....(LOVE)really a confuse things, we hope, we wish, all not going well......hope next time don't be like that.....sick of that problem already!!!
Hearing from she say that her boy friend break up with her, I'm a bit happy because I'm waiting for her for so long time, I'm also hope she can study same college with me,can see her every time than OK already for me!!!!
My problem got a little bit same with her, all is couple false, couple hanging around with other admirer......why this kind of things happen?
what the hell.....if you love the person then both of you be together and forever.....if not why be together....(LOVE)really a confuse things, we hope, we wish, all not going well......hope next time don't be like that.....sick of that problem already!!!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
！没完没了！
说真的，新年的心情还在我的心里。虽然今年的新年不好过，很庆幸的是朋友都来我的家拜年，不管是好的，还是坏的。很开心在我的生命中遇到他们全部!!!!
三十晚，和一些朋友去喝酒，当中听了很多不想听的事情，例如：朋友之间（兄弟）不爽谁，夹在中间的我不知该如何是好。朋友口中（你变胆小了，变了很多），说真的，我承认我变了很多，如果当初没发生一些事，今天我就不会那么的会想。《在我们成长的过程，谁没犯过错？谁是百分百的？很遗憾，没有人是百分百的，而每个人都有犯些小或大的错》
初一晚，又被些朋友叫出来喝酒，最怪的是我尽然吃（鱼），最高兴的是我认识到一些（老大），认识了都没有用，因为我都没在外找事情，（天下太平的我）一路来都对每个人好好的。朋友说的对，我就是天使与恶魔之间，说真的，我宁可当天使多过恶魔《阿米陀佛》!!!!!
初二晚，去拜年后就和中学朋友聚集在old town边喝边聊，有说有笑，重点的是我从他们身上学到了很多，知道了大学的生活，大学的好与坏。真的很感谢他们和我分享。《友谊万岁》
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新年过了，考试也过了，放假期间，我就乖乖的帮父亲，由于父亲的年纪，我尽量做些粗的，重的，好好的让他休息三个礼拜，有时候我觉得很奇怪，奇怪为什么我长大了父亲还是那么的管我，指导我，有时候觉得自己真的很幸福。《每个人都该知足，因为比我们惨，失落，无助的人还要多，他们是我们的老师，我们还需要跟他们学习做人的道理》
开学前几天就回来了，当上了飞机就觉得很害怕，又很想吐（有可能想太多了），毕竟是第一次嘛，怕是理所当然的，最好玩的是，坐飞机真的很刺激。没做过的人就该找机会去做哦!!!!!见了（她）又恨又爱的感觉，不知该如何。当东西拿了给（她），（她）就走人了，我很恨我自己为什么不能把（她）留住，真的很谢谢（她）让我明白什么是爱情!!!!@.@
“每个人学习的东西都不同，做的事情都不一样，人要在什么情况下才能做得最好最棒，那就得靠自己的做法了。人不会命令你去做，只能在你的周围帮和提醒你而已，是好是坏就只有你自己知道” 张子庆笔*
三十晚，和一些朋友去喝酒，当中听了很多不想听的事情，例如：朋友之间（兄弟）不爽谁，夹在中间的我不知该如何是好。朋友口中（你变胆小了，变了很多），说真的，我承认我变了很多，如果当初没发生一些事，今天我就不会那么的会想。《在我们成长的过程，谁没犯过错？谁是百分百的？很遗憾，没有人是百分百的，而每个人都有犯些小或大的错》
初一晚，又被些朋友叫出来喝酒，最怪的是我尽然吃（鱼），最高兴的是我认识到一些（老大），认识了都没有用，因为我都没在外找事情，（天下太平的我）一路来都对每个人好好的。朋友说的对，我就是天使与恶魔之间，说真的，我宁可当天使多过恶魔《阿米陀佛》!!!!!
初二晚，去拜年后就和中学朋友聚集在old town边喝边聊，有说有笑，重点的是我从他们身上学到了很多，知道了大学的生活，大学的好与坏。真的很感谢他们和我分享。《友谊万岁》
———————————————————————————————
新年过了，考试也过了，放假期间，我就乖乖的帮父亲，由于父亲的年纪，我尽量做些粗的，重的，好好的让他休息三个礼拜，有时候我觉得很奇怪，奇怪为什么我长大了父亲还是那么的管我，指导我，有时候觉得自己真的很幸福。《每个人都该知足，因为比我们惨，失落，无助的人还要多，他们是我们的老师，我们还需要跟他们学习做人的道理》
开学前几天就回来了，当上了飞机就觉得很害怕，又很想吐（有可能想太多了），毕竟是第一次嘛，怕是理所当然的，最好玩的是，坐飞机真的很刺激。没做过的人就该找机会去做哦!!!!!见了（她）又恨又爱的感觉，不知该如何。当东西拿了给（她），（她）就走人了，我很恨我自己为什么不能把（她）留住，真的很谢谢（她）让我明白什么是爱情!!!!@.@
“每个人学习的东西都不同，做的事情都不一样，人要在什么情况下才能做得最好最棒，那就得靠自己的做法了。人不会命令你去做，只能在你的周围帮和提醒你而已，是好是坏就只有你自己知道” 张子庆笔*
Saturday, January 17, 2009
考试心情
考试真的很压力，不知为什么每当考试都会有些病，失眠。
前几天喉咙很痛，吞口水时感觉被针刺，很辛苦又无奈。昨天无法睡，因为很烦，烦什么就不清楚？
剩下一个礼拜多就新年了，不知要买什么来孝敬婆婆，很久没看到婆婆了，希望婆婆身体健康。
这次不再烦学业了，顺其之然，心就会好好过。我会好好过，你呢？
天时地利人和，我要怎样才能拥有这些呢？《我拥有了吗？》
每次朋友遇到烦恼的时候，我都会支持他们，指导他们怎样去做，让他们觉得自己是很好的。当烦恼，压力遇见我的时后，我就一个人坐在角落的旁边，一个人哭泣，等着天使来帮帮我，指导我！！《谁是我的天使？》
这次不可以一个人偷偷的哭泣，怎样都要爬起和振作.........《我要做天使》
（指导身边的人，呵护身边的人）虽然我不是第一，我也可以成为第一，只要有恒心就连铁也能磨成针。o(∩_∩)o...呵呵
“我一身在纸上，就像给风吹乱，命运不堪，就像精灵住错了森林。长大后我才明白，我就以为甜蜜散落了，跌倒了就不往前走。我不可以容易就想放弃，追不到的梦想，换一个梦不就得了吗？看生命像阵风，青春只剩下一张绝版海报，总是忍不住寂寞掉下。有机会最坏也最甜蜜，就像密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割，关在永远的躯壳。我怀疑我的梦想变了样，很高兴有心事，帮我捆着我自己。我抽着差不多的烟，又过了差不多的一天，花了差不多的钱，代表我很天真，这差不多的人生艰深。落叶堆积了好几层，而我踩过了青春，如今我还在原地，但愿有属于我的星球。”《%超级废%》
前几天喉咙很痛，吞口水时感觉被针刺，很辛苦又无奈。昨天无法睡，因为很烦，烦什么就不清楚？
剩下一个礼拜多就新年了，不知要买什么来孝敬婆婆，很久没看到婆婆了，希望婆婆身体健康。
这次不再烦学业了，顺其之然，心就会好好过。我会好好过，你呢？
天时地利人和，我要怎样才能拥有这些呢？《我拥有了吗？》
每次朋友遇到烦恼的时候，我都会支持他们，指导他们怎样去做，让他们觉得自己是很好的。当烦恼，压力遇见我的时后，我就一个人坐在角落的旁边，一个人哭泣，等着天使来帮帮我，指导我！！《谁是我的天使？》
这次不可以一个人偷偷的哭泣，怎样都要爬起和振作.........《我要做天使》
（指导身边的人，呵护身边的人）虽然我不是第一，我也可以成为第一，只要有恒心就连铁也能磨成针。o(∩_∩)o...呵呵
“我一身在纸上，就像给风吹乱，命运不堪，就像精灵住错了森林。长大后我才明白，我就以为甜蜜散落了，跌倒了就不往前走。我不可以容易就想放弃，追不到的梦想，换一个梦不就得了吗？看生命像阵风，青春只剩下一张绝版海报，总是忍不住寂寞掉下。有机会最坏也最甜蜜，就像密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割，关在永远的躯壳。我怀疑我的梦想变了样，很高兴有心事，帮我捆着我自己。我抽着差不多的烟，又过了差不多的一天，花了差不多的钱，代表我很天真，这差不多的人生艰深。落叶堆积了好几层，而我踩过了青春，如今我还在原地，但愿有属于我的星球。”《%超级废%》
Monday, January 12, 2009
为何不可？
每次考试的时候，都会有意外的惊喜。就像好的事情，慢慢的来领。那么坏的东西也参与一起。
最近，认识了新朋友，和她谈得来。无法抗拒的是，每天都和她谈很多废话！！例如：在做什么？吃了吗？没去玩吗？难读吗？哦！是么！好的！
在这时候，是你，你会做什么呢？
你会觉得，你浪费时间在陌生人的身上吗？朋友故意说你和她有关系？你会怎样？
或许，对你来说是好的，但是，你要怎样才能专著你的学业？
看破红尘？
要怎样才能看破？
朋友从家乡回来，找你去喝茶，谈谈天，聊聊事！！
说了很多，最终得到的是，一事无成。这样值得吗？寂寞的时候才找你，开心的时候才忘记你。你找他的时候，他不理你，一大堆借口。对于我，很值得的。因为我开始慢慢的看破了，我知道我们不能永远的追求我们所得到的东西。当得到了，我们会想办法去安排好，安排好了，我们就会贪，贪每个事情都要顺顺利利的，没什么阻碍。最后，我们得到的是什么都没了！
黑的有白，白的有黑？（废话）
什么是白？什么是黑？
其实很简单！！
最近，认识了新朋友，和她谈得来。无法抗拒的是，每天都和她谈很多废话！！例如：在做什么？吃了吗？没去玩吗？难读吗？哦！是么！好的！
在这时候，是你，你会做什么呢？
你会觉得，你浪费时间在陌生人的身上吗？朋友故意说你和她有关系？你会怎样？
或许，对你来说是好的，但是，你要怎样才能专著你的学业？
看破红尘？
要怎样才能看破？
朋友从家乡回来，找你去喝茶，谈谈天，聊聊事！！
说了很多，最终得到的是，一事无成。这样值得吗？寂寞的时候才找你，开心的时候才忘记你。你找他的时候，他不理你，一大堆借口。对于我，很值得的。因为我开始慢慢的看破了，我知道我们不能永远的追求我们所得到的东西。当得到了，我们会想办法去安排好，安排好了，我们就会贪，贪每个事情都要顺顺利利的，没什么阻碍。最后，我们得到的是什么都没了！
黑的有白，白的有黑？（废话）
什么是白？什么是黑？
其实很简单！！
- 做每样事情都要往好的方面想。
- 要记住的是，这世界上比我们更苦，更悲哀的人还要多。
- 做每样事情，都要考虑双方面，是否好是否坏。
问题解决了吗？
还没，因为当我们遇到麻烦的时候，理智就会慢慢地消失，冲动会指导我们更加去恨，愤怒，以及悲哀。最终，我们学到的是，如何忘掉，如何失去，如何不想。
我要的是认识更多朋友，追求我的学业。
朋友永远都是排第二，我会好好的珍惜。
Monday, January 5, 2009
懒惰！
最近过得蛮轻松的，迟睡也迟醒！
搬去别间房的问题吧，超好睡的，弄得我一定要多睡，迟醒！
刚刚去染了发，觉得很难看，但是也蛮style的（废话）。呵呵！！！
新年还有几个礼拜，朋友就约我去走走，买这个买哪个！花钱的时间来了，无法抗拒花钱，很久没花钱的我太过瘾了，期待着几天，新鞋新衣全都新。o(∩_∩)o...
期待过年的期间，和小学-中学的好朋友聚一聚。有几年没看到他们了，变丑还是变美，英俊还是猪扒，都得看看。或许，全都忙没时间吧！回去过年的时候，一定有很多新闻可以八卦一下的。哈哈哈！！
家人和我谈了很多，关于学业的，让我难过的就是，我有可能不想读了。
爸爸在电话里告诉我，路是我自己选的，他和妈妈只能支持我所做的一切，最终的看看我的成绩才做出决定。（希望如此）
祝福所有的人都能学业进步，步步高升，全科过关。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……
搬去别间房的问题吧，超好睡的，弄得我一定要多睡，迟醒！
刚刚去染了发，觉得很难看，但是也蛮style的（废话）。呵呵！！！
新年还有几个礼拜，朋友就约我去走走，买这个买哪个！花钱的时间来了，无法抗拒花钱，很久没花钱的我太过瘾了，期待着几天，新鞋新衣全都新。o(∩_∩)o...
期待过年的期间，和小学-中学的好朋友聚一聚。有几年没看到他们了，变丑还是变美，英俊还是猪扒，都得看看。或许，全都忙没时间吧！回去过年的时候，一定有很多新闻可以八卦一下的。哈哈哈！！
家人和我谈了很多，关于学业的，让我难过的就是，我有可能不想读了。
爸爸在电话里告诉我，路是我自己选的，他和妈妈只能支持我所做的一切，最终的看看我的成绩才做出决定。（希望如此）
祝福所有的人都能学业进步，步步高升，全科过关。(*^__^*) 嘻嘻……
Thursday, January 1, 2009
时间可以弥补一个伤口，且治不好一个缺口！
什么是利用？
你有好处就利用你。当你一无所有的时候，（朋友）这个字也难说出口。
一个人的态度，姿态是难以表达的。有时候就一句话，伤害到身边的人，我们也不知道，也有时候我们被伤害了，只好治好自己的心灵。
给人利用了就当作一个教训，给人批评就当作一个学习。
什么是幸福？
你过得比别人超好，快乐，无忧无虑。人家就会羡慕你，嫉妒你。
幸福是靠自己的，不是钱都能买得到。或许，有些人都认为钱是万能的，但是钱永远都不会让一个人满足，快乐。有钱的人永远都找不到满足感！
失去的时候，就该学会珍惜，将来就紧紧地呵护以及保护所得到的。
最近过的超棒的，和哥哥去吃高级的餐馆，又和朋友去倒数。
说真的，和朋友去倒数真的很开心，喝酒喝到醉，醉倒无法走。虽然第二天是很辛苦，但是值得的，超值的。
觉得很骄傲，骄傲是认识了新朋友。和他们在一起真的很开心，虽然之前过得很不好，最终我学到了很多。要怎样带眼认识身边所有每一个人，不是每个人都能将心比心的成为你的最佳兄弟和家人。心怎样都会有一个刺，需要的是时间来慢慢的修养和弥补之前所受的伤。
我不会恨那些利用，玩弄和欺负我的人，反而会谢谢他们让我学到了很多。
（谢谢你们所给的）
你有好处就利用你。当你一无所有的时候，（朋友）这个字也难说出口。
一个人的态度，姿态是难以表达的。有时候就一句话，伤害到身边的人，我们也不知道，也有时候我们被伤害了，只好治好自己的心灵。
给人利用了就当作一个教训，给人批评就当作一个学习。
什么是幸福？
你过得比别人超好，快乐，无忧无虑。人家就会羡慕你，嫉妒你。
幸福是靠自己的，不是钱都能买得到。或许，有些人都认为钱是万能的，但是钱永远都不会让一个人满足，快乐。有钱的人永远都找不到满足感！
失去的时候，就该学会珍惜，将来就紧紧地呵护以及保护所得到的。
最近过的超棒的，和哥哥去吃高级的餐馆，又和朋友去倒数。
说真的，和朋友去倒数真的很开心，喝酒喝到醉，醉倒无法走。虽然第二天是很辛苦，但是值得的，超值的。
觉得很骄傲，骄傲是认识了新朋友。和他们在一起真的很开心，虽然之前过得很不好，最终我学到了很多。要怎样带眼认识身边所有每一个人，不是每个人都能将心比心的成为你的最佳兄弟和家人。心怎样都会有一个刺，需要的是时间来慢慢的修养和弥补之前所受的伤。
我不会恨那些利用，玩弄和欺负我的人，反而会谢谢他们让我学到了很多。
（谢谢你们所给的）
Monday, December 22, 2008
之前的之后！！
2008/11/23 雨天
最近过的舒服，因为找到了酒店。不用再去烦那些无聊的事情，但是，钱就不够用了，不知为何钱会不够用，也许自己花太多了，也许！！昨天做工的时候，做了不该做的事情，然而今天没去上班，有时候，我都会想为什么我存不到钱，真的很后悔小时候没存钱，如今要去走走，玩都是一个问题。
过多两天，她就要回去了，从她的对白中，我觉得她不会再来了，我能做什么呢？我无能，因为我超过预算了。咳！！！只能默默承受她的离别…….假装多好，我只想在拥有一秒，继续等待还是逃…….
看来，今天会好睡也要好好的睡一番，至少我不用去想，不用去烦。 (@.@)
2008/11/28 Rainy day
Last few day really stress, stress about all the assignment. Really pressure work with a team that does not want to care all things, sometimes I really hope that I can do all the assignment but I’m not so good at English. Talk with Indian housemates with English, really hard and uncomfortable. Now a day, all things are English, without English people will look down upon you.
Today really happy, although she did’t talk with me in directly its enough already, because our friendship is still remain average and the important things is she did’t hate me. Leave some comment on her blog, hope she will write something inside but not to delete it….1o1
2008/12/06 sunny day
Unexpected day for me….when I pick up the phone that is calling from my closest buddy. He told me to accompany him to go for a walk because he wants to walk around B.Bintang!! Apart from that, he also want me accompany him to go G.Highlands. It is better to me because this few day I was pressure for my assignment, presentation and personal things.
I did’t too much and I quickly pick up my things and bath for a while then going out. It’s an unexpected day….really….after I reach there, his friend calling him telling he that, she cannot going out because of raining. So we go out to have a drink with some talk. At there, we talk many about our latest cert friend. A while later, I go to his aunt house and type my blog, after blogging I decide to go back home doing assignment. But I’m take a wrong bus to G.Klang…..really damn, have to waste money again, but things started to happen…..
I see many people surround the victim at the scene and starting a fight. I stop at there and go out to see anything I can help but at the moment I also feel so frightened and with some anger that comes from my heart. Why Malay people like to fight, is it their lifestyle and culture, but no one can deny that it is their culture and lifestyle. Really feel pity for the victim, but in any ways really hope one day all Chinese and Indian can be together co-operate to each other then wrack all Malay, amitabha, hope the day comes and not so…..if comes world war three is happening.
最近过的舒服，因为找到了酒店。不用再去烦那些无聊的事情，但是，钱就不够用了，不知为何钱会不够用，也许自己花太多了，也许！！昨天做工的时候，做了不该做的事情，然而今天没去上班，有时候，我都会想为什么我存不到钱，真的很后悔小时候没存钱，如今要去走走，玩都是一个问题。
过多两天，她就要回去了，从她的对白中，我觉得她不会再来了，我能做什么呢？我无能，因为我超过预算了。咳！！！只能默默承受她的离别…….假装多好，我只想在拥有一秒，继续等待还是逃…….
看来，今天会好睡也要好好的睡一番，至少我不用去想，不用去烦。 (@.@)
2008/11/28 Rainy day
Last few day really stress, stress about all the assignment. Really pressure work with a team that does not want to care all things, sometimes I really hope that I can do all the assignment but I’m not so good at English. Talk with Indian housemates with English, really hard and uncomfortable. Now a day, all things are English, without English people will look down upon you.
Today really happy, although she did’t talk with me in directly its enough already, because our friendship is still remain average and the important things is she did’t hate me. Leave some comment on her blog, hope she will write something inside but not to delete it….1o1
2008/12/06 sunny day
Unexpected day for me….when I pick up the phone that is calling from my closest buddy. He told me to accompany him to go for a walk because he wants to walk around B.Bintang!! Apart from that, he also want me accompany him to go G.Highlands. It is better to me because this few day I was pressure for my assignment, presentation and personal things.
I did’t too much and I quickly pick up my things and bath for a while then going out. It’s an unexpected day….really….after I reach there, his friend calling him telling he that, she cannot going out because of raining. So we go out to have a drink with some talk. At there, we talk many about our latest cert friend. A while later, I go to his aunt house and type my blog, after blogging I decide to go back home doing assignment. But I’m take a wrong bus to G.Klang…..really damn, have to waste money again, but things started to happen…..
I see many people surround the victim at the scene and starting a fight. I stop at there and go out to see anything I can help but at the moment I also feel so frightened and with some anger that comes from my heart. Why Malay people like to fight, is it their lifestyle and culture, but no one can deny that it is their culture and lifestyle. Really feel pity for the victim, but in any ways really hope one day all Chinese and Indian can be together co-operate to each other then wrack all Malay, amitabha, hope the day comes and not so…..if comes world war three is happening.
之前！！
2008/11/17 雨天
忽然间，觉得很压力，压力是因为学院的功课。这几天想了很久，是否我之前做错了很多事情？很奇怪的事，为什么人做错的时候就不会反省呢？反而会说我们或讲我们，有时候我很不甘心，不甘心为什么有些人错了对都要批评我们，很想问你们错了有为自己着想吗？
我承认我很闷，我很闷是因为我有为自己的将来着想，我不适合在这个时候过平淡的日子，因为我不是有很多的钱，虽然我有钱但不比你们多。有时候觉得世界很不公平，为什么我会遇到这样的遭遇。在佛的观念，我是不是在前世所修来的（因）呢？或者我在制造（因）呢？我有时候都会问自己，我所得到的是否恨知足长乐，无忧无虑，自由自在？
有时候和朋友甚至兄弟分享的时候，我多会给他们好的评语，无消极的答案以及经验。对我来说，如果我给了他们这些想法，他们会否像我这样呢？带着幸福以及快乐的笑容面对朋友，心里其实是很失落的。我甚至给自己写评语，告诉自己也提醒自己，世界上还有些人比我跟无助跟无奈，为什么我会为了小小的事情而烦呢？说了都觉得很好笑。或许我给我自己太大的压力了吧，也许我想太多了吧@@
做了不该做的事情，想了不该想的事情。这不是我的风格也不是我的态度，或许我给我自己太大的压力了吧%%很想说我真的很累了，不想了，但是我能怎么做，有谁能帮助我呢？
2008/11/20 阴天
这几天过的很烦，烦学业，金钱和自己的事情。不知道为什么最近花钱花的太过分，还班费，吃的，喝的以及出街的零用钱。听学院的朋友说，我们的功课被扣分了，真的很伤心也很失望，伤心的事，是为什么我不能做到最好，失望是因为团体的关系，或许我要求的太多了吧！也许我不应该要求太多。
发信息给了（— —），写了很多对不起，觉得自己辜负了她，或许我不该想，或许我的缘分还没到，或许我害怕？刚刚很惊讶，惊讶（— —）打来，从（— —）口气中，觉得（— —）生气了，也对，也好。我无能为力，玩不起！！哈哈……..
顺其自然，跟着时间走，随着心情跑。该不该这样说呢？忽然间觉得自己比任何人越来越远，好像呆在角落，无人帮助，无人指导。听着同样的歌曲，唱着同样的曲子，忽然间很想回到妈妈的怀抱，也很想念妈妈的温馨以及体贴的呵护。
下午的时候，接听朋友的来电，朋友告诉了我，或许他独自的来吉隆破，很期待他的到来也很期待当天的日子。发泄……..这就是我的本性，除了吃，喝，玩，乐，最期待的是酒精的影响。对我来说，醉了什么就不用去想，什么都不用去烦。这就是我的生活，简单，容易以及容易明白。
或许我太天真了！也许我二十岁了但是思想还是停留在十八岁吧！！！
忽然间，觉得很压力，压力是因为学院的功课。这几天想了很久，是否我之前做错了很多事情？很奇怪的事，为什么人做错的时候就不会反省呢？反而会说我们或讲我们，有时候我很不甘心，不甘心为什么有些人错了对都要批评我们，很想问你们错了有为自己着想吗？
我承认我很闷，我很闷是因为我有为自己的将来着想，我不适合在这个时候过平淡的日子，因为我不是有很多的钱，虽然我有钱但不比你们多。有时候觉得世界很不公平，为什么我会遇到这样的遭遇。在佛的观念，我是不是在前世所修来的（因）呢？或者我在制造（因）呢？我有时候都会问自己，我所得到的是否恨知足长乐，无忧无虑，自由自在？
有时候和朋友甚至兄弟分享的时候，我多会给他们好的评语，无消极的答案以及经验。对我来说，如果我给了他们这些想法，他们会否像我这样呢？带着幸福以及快乐的笑容面对朋友，心里其实是很失落的。我甚至给自己写评语，告诉自己也提醒自己，世界上还有些人比我跟无助跟无奈，为什么我会为了小小的事情而烦呢？说了都觉得很好笑。或许我给我自己太大的压力了吧，也许我想太多了吧@@
做了不该做的事情，想了不该想的事情。这不是我的风格也不是我的态度，或许我给我自己太大的压力了吧%%很想说我真的很累了，不想了，但是我能怎么做，有谁能帮助我呢？
2008/11/20 阴天
这几天过的很烦，烦学业，金钱和自己的事情。不知道为什么最近花钱花的太过分，还班费，吃的，喝的以及出街的零用钱。听学院的朋友说，我们的功课被扣分了，真的很伤心也很失望，伤心的事，是为什么我不能做到最好，失望是因为团体的关系，或许我要求的太多了吧！也许我不应该要求太多。
发信息给了（— —），写了很多对不起，觉得自己辜负了她，或许我不该想，或许我的缘分还没到，或许我害怕？刚刚很惊讶，惊讶（— —）打来，从（— —）口气中，觉得（— —）生气了，也对，也好。我无能为力，玩不起！！哈哈……..
顺其自然，跟着时间走，随着心情跑。该不该这样说呢？忽然间觉得自己比任何人越来越远，好像呆在角落，无人帮助，无人指导。听着同样的歌曲，唱着同样的曲子，忽然间很想回到妈妈的怀抱，也很想念妈妈的温馨以及体贴的呵护。
下午的时候，接听朋友的来电，朋友告诉了我，或许他独自的来吉隆破，很期待他的到来也很期待当天的日子。发泄……..这就是我的本性，除了吃，喝，玩，乐，最期待的是酒精的影响。对我来说，醉了什么就不用去想，什么都不用去烦。这就是我的生活，简单，容易以及容易明白。
或许我太天真了！也许我二十岁了但是思想还是停留在十八岁吧！！！
Friday, December 19, 2008
！天使以及魔鬼！
天使在那里？
魔鬼又在那里？
毕竟很多人都相信天使是住在天堂的，而魔鬼是在地狱生活的。但是你们都有想过吗，其实我们的身旁都有天使以及魔鬼。那些天使就像我们的父母，每天都担心我们，指导我们，给我们钱去上学，那么魔鬼呢？魔鬼就像我们的敌人，我们所恨的人，讨厌的人。
你明白了吗？
天使是何方神圣？
魔鬼又是谁呢？
天使是你吗？那当然是。魔鬼还是你吗？那也理所当然。因为你可以选择要像天使一般还是魔鬼那般。都说了选择在你手中，我只是平凡的人。我不能把天上的星星取给你，我也不能把整个宇宙的愿望都给你。
还不明白吗？
简单，容易和容易明白。
天使很难做，魔鬼更加难做。我帮也帮了，说也说了，问也问了。结果勒.........还是一样，我放弃了，真的放弃了，你知道我再说谁吗？
我就是在讲你.........你认为我再说你就说你咯！你认为我在批评你就批评你咯！
（瓦麦敢了）福建@.@
魔鬼又在那里？
毕竟很多人都相信天使是住在天堂的，而魔鬼是在地狱生活的。但是你们都有想过吗，其实我们的身旁都有天使以及魔鬼。那些天使就像我们的父母，每天都担心我们，指导我们，给我们钱去上学，那么魔鬼呢？魔鬼就像我们的敌人，我们所恨的人，讨厌的人。
你明白了吗？
天使是何方神圣？
魔鬼又是谁呢？
天使是你吗？那当然是。魔鬼还是你吗？那也理所当然。因为你可以选择要像天使一般还是魔鬼那般。都说了选择在你手中，我只是平凡的人。我不能把天上的星星取给你，我也不能把整个宇宙的愿望都给你。
还不明白吗？
简单，容易和容易明白。
天使很难做，魔鬼更加难做。我帮也帮了，说也说了，问也问了。结果勒.........还是一样，我放弃了，真的放弃了，你知道我再说谁吗？
我就是在讲你.........你认为我再说你就说你咯！你认为我在批评你就批评你咯！
（瓦麦敢了）福建@.@
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
榴莲以及臭豆腐
也许很多人都喜欢吃榴莲以及臭豆腐，也有一些人恨透这一类的食物和水果。
其实很简单，选者在您手中。
榴莲虽然很臭，但是它的肉很甜又好吃，又苦的味道，浓浓的味道。
臭豆腐也一样，虽然它特别的臭，但，它其实是很好吃又带着美妙的感觉。
想要了解它，就地从它们开始，慢慢的了解以及明白。
我虽然不是很伟大，但我对社会有点贡献，贡献在于为社会服务（将来）呵呵！！
今天很累又疲倦，值得的。
去了银行，帮哥哥进钱，就去吃午饭就去上课。很后悔当初中学时期不好好的读书，如今对算得很笨！！T.T
放学了就想快快的回家，走啊走，遇到了她们.......很想跟她们说话的，尤其是（她），但一见面了就无话可说，或许我尴尬吧！！
很想问她最近好吗？没出去玩吗？要跟我们一起去唱歌吗？
当时头脑一片空白，只想快快的回家。哎......真的很失败**
我觉得自己就像留连以及臭豆腐。1o1
其实很简单，选者在您手中。
榴莲虽然很臭，但是它的肉很甜又好吃，又苦的味道，浓浓的味道。
臭豆腐也一样，虽然它特别的臭，但，它其实是很好吃又带着美妙的感觉。
想要了解它，就地从它们开始，慢慢的了解以及明白。
我虽然不是很伟大，但我对社会有点贡献，贡献在于为社会服务（将来）呵呵！！
今天很累又疲倦，值得的。
去了银行，帮哥哥进钱，就去吃午饭就去上课。很后悔当初中学时期不好好的读书，如今对算得很笨！！T.T
放学了就想快快的回家，走啊走，遇到了她们.......很想跟她们说话的，尤其是（她），但一见面了就无话可说，或许我尴尬吧！！
很想问她最近好吗？没出去玩吗？要跟我们一起去唱歌吗？
当时头脑一片空白，只想快快的回家。哎......真的很失败**
我觉得自己就像留连以及臭豆腐。1o1
.....Presentation....
Today presentation really suck.
Talk about assignment, this is the suck sem for me, didn't done the assignment well and didn't manage the group member well also, specially the assignment.
In reality, i be a bad person that clean all things and all the problem that occur, team member will throw it all to me settle. Maybe i didn't well prepare, my friend have told me to divide the job to each member.....AJS you are right!!!!
Talk about pressure, it is true that, we all finish coursework but the more and dangerous pressure is (FINAL EXAM)
Wish the time can quickly past away and all of us pass all paper with flying colour(NO RESIT)......
Suddenly (S.P) friend calling, inform me that he will come to Kay L next week. Oh my god, how cant, i didn't know where to bring them to go for......haih.....god please don't torture me....(TOLONG,PLEASE,求求你)
By the way, well done all member (JS,SAKAI,QIAN,JAMIE,KENROY,XIANG) although today was not satisfy, in the future we may get the higher marks and no more weakness on our assignment and so on......GAMBATEH....GOOD LUCK....
Talk about assignment, this is the suck sem for me, didn't done the assignment well and didn't manage the group member well also, specially the assignment.
In reality, i be a bad person that clean all things and all the problem that occur, team member will throw it all to me settle. Maybe i didn't well prepare, my friend have told me to divide the job to each member.....AJS you are right!!!!
Talk about pressure, it is true that, we all finish coursework but the more and dangerous pressure is (FINAL EXAM)
Wish the time can quickly past away and all of us pass all paper with flying colour(NO RESIT)......
Suddenly (S.P) friend calling, inform me that he will come to Kay L next week. Oh my god, how cant, i didn't know where to bring them to go for......haih.....god please don't torture me....(TOLONG,PLEASE,求求你)
By the way, well done all member (JS,SAKAI,QIAN,JAMIE,KENROY,XIANG) although today was not satisfy, in the future we may get the higher marks and no more weakness on our assignment and so on......GAMBATEH....GOOD LUCK....
Monday, December 15, 2008
It's a big big world@@
Having an unhappy feeling today.
Get a cold, tired and sleepy, it's turn worst when your friend fooling around you without your feeling. EI....please la....if i really angry, you might get wrack by me without settle one....so, next time don't disturb me any more. Your attitude are suck, i always ask myself, is this your attitude?
But, in the end, i realise that this is not your attitude. From your presentation, talk and your opinion. You are pretend to be.....
Don't pretend to be, but to follow your style then you would be more happy and good luck. As a human being, we all must learn, learn this, learn that and the most precious thing's is we wiling to act and get the meaning behind the learning.
I didn't comment about you, just the way you done, you hurt somebody without your thought. And that's really suck, when you having a critical moment, people will judge you discriminate you and specially won't help you, because of your attitude.
I'm telling this because i (kena) before, that's why i know how to change the situation at the moment.
Next time must (guai guai) and i will pray for you. (( GOOD LUCK ))
Get a cold, tired and sleepy, it's turn worst when your friend fooling around you without your feeling. EI....please la....if i really angry, you might get wrack by me without settle one....so, next time don't disturb me any more. Your attitude are suck, i always ask myself, is this your attitude?
But, in the end, i realise that this is not your attitude. From your presentation, talk and your opinion. You are pretend to be.....
Don't pretend to be, but to follow your style then you would be more happy and good luck. As a human being, we all must learn, learn this, learn that and the most precious thing's is we wiling to act and get the meaning behind the learning.
I didn't comment about you, just the way you done, you hurt somebody without your thought. And that's really suck, when you having a critical moment, people will judge you discriminate you and specially won't help you, because of your attitude.
I'm telling this because i (kena) before, that's why i know how to change the situation at the moment.
Next time must (guai guai) and i will pray for you. (( GOOD LUCK ))
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Talk to me!!!
Why people like to comment about people?
Why there is always a misunderstanding?
Why the word is so difficult to understand?
Why? Why? Why? Why?
Actually there's not so hard to understand, just people don't want to recognize their attitude only.
(No one plan to fail,but, Someone fail to plan)
That's why people always think and say but in the end they done nothing, human always like that....
Open minded/Close minded?
There's no point, telling people are we close minded or open minded?
Just the way we think and feel. When we think we close minded/open minded we may get an easy and comfortable to our self, because that is our lifestyle.
Don't ever listen to people thought, people speech and specially people opinion, we may get influence by them otherwise we will be a murderer in their heart, because we shoot them with uneasy word........
Try to console yourself with positive thought and not to face/touch the negative one. Sometimes share with people/friend/family, we may feel relieve and relax, because we pour out the bad things from us.....In future we may know how to solute the problem without any problem occur......####Good Luck####
Why there is always a misunderstanding?
Why the word is so difficult to understand?
Why? Why? Why? Why?
Actually there's not so hard to understand, just people don't want to recognize their attitude only.
(No one plan to fail,but, Someone fail to plan)
That's why people always think and say but in the end they done nothing, human always like that....
Open minded/Close minded?
There's no point, telling people are we close minded or open minded?
Just the way we think and feel. When we think we close minded/open minded we may get an easy and comfortable to our self, because that is our lifestyle.
Don't ever listen to people thought, people speech and specially people opinion, we may get influence by them otherwise we will be a murderer in their heart, because we shoot them with uneasy word........
Try to console yourself with positive thought and not to face/touch the negative one. Sometimes share with people/friend/family, we may feel relieve and relax, because we pour out the bad things from us.....In future we may know how to solute the problem without any problem occur......####Good Luck####
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Shitty day ($.$)
Going to Genting Highlands gambling,starting win about 400$,but after a while....lose about 800$ more.
Curiosity kill the cat......this is why I'm do.Thought gambling can win but in the end lose money and head ache about the problem that occur...
天啊！！！
以后都不敢了，还不怕黑吗？
以后要去玩，可以，出来社会时比较好，因为有多余的钱可以花嘛@.@
Curiosity kill the cat......this is why I'm do.Thought gambling can win but in the end lose money and head ache about the problem that occur...
天啊！！！
以后都不敢了，还不怕黑吗？
以后要去玩，可以，出来社会时比较好，因为有多余的钱可以花嘛@.@
Friday, December 5, 2008
its been a while....
One month pass already, its time to upgrade my blog.
Seriously, this last few weeks, i had a worst and hard moment.Facing the assignment that tutor give, group discussion with team member and specially typing English.Don't know why this semester really hate assignment, maybe I'm too lazy.
Other things that happen to me is, my housemates had an accident near wangsa maju.Really feel pity for him,that time i realize why parent will scold you when you are having something unexpected....like fighting, had an accident and specially something unexpected thing happen.I'm very happy that day didn't scold him,if i really scold,i would scold him for drive so fast till accident but it the end i console him not to worries about my bike.
The other things that i gain is our friendship......really happy because we are all together when something is happen, in the future please don't happen any more.
Apart from that, our course tutor class have controversy with each other......the controversy is who hate who? who don't like who? This controversy also include me as well.....I'm Innocent one...
Yesterday, a suck day to me!!! It is 1st time all sit together to eat at "mamak" stall....really weird and bring some excited feeling. why suck? suck because we all disturb a girl, i feel really shame but in the end, i learn something something about girl feeling.Actually the girl is happy....1o1....
Next few day may have a lot of things to write......
Seriously, this last few weeks, i had a worst and hard moment.Facing the assignment that tutor give, group discussion with team member and specially typing English.Don't know why this semester really hate assignment, maybe I'm too lazy.
Other things that happen to me is, my housemates had an accident near wangsa maju.Really feel pity for him,that time i realize why parent will scold you when you are having something unexpected....like fighting, had an accident and specially something unexpected thing happen.I'm very happy that day didn't scold him,if i really scold,i would scold him for drive so fast till accident but it the end i console him not to worries about my bike.
The other things that i gain is our friendship......really happy because we are all together when something is happen, in the future please don't happen any more.
Apart from that, our course tutor class have controversy with each other......the controversy is who hate who? who don't like who? This controversy also include me as well.....I'm Innocent one...
Yesterday, a suck day to me!!! It is 1st time all sit together to eat at "mamak" stall....really weird and bring some excited feeling. why suck? suck because we all disturb a girl, i feel really shame but in the end, i learn something something about girl feeling.Actually the girl is happy....1o1....
Next few day may have a lot of things to write......
Friday, November 14, 2008
Ending!!!!!!
Life didn't go well,there are some times we hard to make a decision even though we try our best to change our attitude.
Why?
A closest buddy tell me many things about lifestyle.There are sometimes we must stand for our right and sometimes we must not and shouldn't stand for our right.When we stand for our right we might/may get hurt some people even though our friend and family.
Having a hard decision to make this few day.......Don't know what should i do and what should i don't do.
Maybe i think too much....maybe i make my lifestyle to be difficult/hard.
Forgetful is human enemy,human always say what to do but in the end,human always fail to finish up something.....just like i...(nobody plan to fail...but somebody fail to plan!!!!)
Now i really confuse,i need some help......want a friend to help me and social with me,and mostly give me some advice.
This few day must think, think what have i done previously and in the future.
Am i going to change? Maybe!
Am i going to be same? Impossible!
Am i going to be kind hearted? Yes!
Now onwards, i will try to make my life to be as much as easier and specially to be more mature in the future!!
What will i do in the future? Still thinking!
What will i plan in the future? No more childish!
What will i wish for? I don't want to be sucker!
Today an appreciate day for me,i appreciate that my buddy give me some comment about myself.Therefore in the coming days,weeks,month and year, i wont disappointed you again.I will prove to you and myself that i am mature and more appreciates! @@
This is the ending......
I will rest for 1 month.....finding some laughing scene,happy scene and specially change myself to be more mature!!!
%THANK YOU%
Why?
A closest buddy tell me many things about lifestyle.There are sometimes we must stand for our right and sometimes we must not and shouldn't stand for our right.When we stand for our right we might/may get hurt some people even though our friend and family.
Having a hard decision to make this few day.......Don't know what should i do and what should i don't do.
Maybe i think too much....maybe i make my lifestyle to be difficult/hard.
Forgetful is human enemy,human always say what to do but in the end,human always fail to finish up something.....just like i...(nobody plan to fail...but somebody fail to plan!!!!)
Now i really confuse,i need some help......want a friend to help me and social with me,and mostly give me some advice.
This few day must think, think what have i done previously and in the future.
Am i going to change? Maybe!
Am i going to be same? Impossible!
Am i going to be kind hearted? Yes!
Now onwards, i will try to make my life to be as much as easier and specially to be more mature in the future!!
What will i do in the future? Still thinking!
What will i plan in the future? No more childish!
What will i wish for? I don't want to be sucker!
Today an appreciate day for me,i appreciate that my buddy give me some comment about myself.Therefore in the coming days,weeks,month and year, i wont disappointed you again.I will prove to you and myself that i am mature and more appreciates! @@
This is the ending......
I will rest for 1 month.....finding some laughing scene,happy scene and specially change myself to be more mature!!!
%THANK YOU%
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Tension.......
worst day of my life......although i move to other place but i still miss CK,GUAN,JOE,VINC,MING and some friend there,why i say that because I'm a human and i have a feeling too.Stay at TBR, really suck because my room so so so and so hot.Want to go back my home town then get the air conditioner to here.....1o1
Yesterday, go out with someone......celebrate birthday with her, from her talk and some expression that she show.....oh my god, she fall in love with me###
Really tension and confuse?Should i??
Wake up early in the morning, going to work although feel so tired but what to do......money,money and money......this is reality.....when burn out of money,its time to think and find where to get the money.
Don't know what bullshit i type now......tension@@@@@@@@@@
Yesterday, go out with someone......celebrate birthday with her, from her talk and some expression that she show.....oh my god, she fall in love with me###
Really tension and confuse?Should i??
Wake up early in the morning, going to work although feel so tired but what to do......money,money and money......this is reality.....when burn out of money,its time to think and find where to get the money.
Don't know what bullshit i type now......tension@@@@@@@@@@
Friday, October 31, 2008
Misunderstanding!!!!
Time to times, day to days.......just few like want to rest my whole life because this few day i did not get a well sleep due to party that held at my house. Actually my course mates tell me to join him at Taman Bunga Raya house there but i cannot due to some reason, reason why i cannot is i burn out my money already, move to there no fun and entertainment and last but not least is i try to be with the environment that i live just now.
So shock, when i just wake up from bed and see a girl sending me a message, from me, i thought i the one who annoying she, because she did not stated who annoy she, i think too much already. If she state the person, the person may get a shame, that may included me. I don't to be so famous, because i too famous already.....1o1.....
Some times i really confuse about a girl, may be i did not love some one or i did not try love before but who care? Love/Like a person but no gut to tell her....then a misunderstand occur and the distances to be friend becomes far.
Having a practical at kitchen really fun, same group with a friend that i like so much but please don't be emo always. No people in this world is worth 100%, but we must figured it out either we want it to be 100% or not. Starting next week, i may go to the lecturer, tutorial and practical class every day, its time for me to be hardworking for my future. May god bless me.....
By the way, the sauces that i taste just now, actually the colour is very nice but the taste still OK and good luck all of us.......go go fighting team@@
So shock, when i just wake up from bed and see a girl sending me a message, from me, i thought i the one who annoying she, because she did not stated who annoy she, i think too much already. If she state the person, the person may get a shame, that may included me. I don't to be so famous, because i too famous already.....1o1.....
Some times i really confuse about a girl, may be i did not love some one or i did not try love before but who care? Love/Like a person but no gut to tell her....then a misunderstand occur and the distances to be friend becomes far.
Having a practical at kitchen really fun, same group with a friend that i like so much but please don't be emo always. No people in this world is worth 100%, but we must figured it out either we want it to be 100% or not. Starting next week, i may go to the lecturer, tutorial and practical class every day, its time for me to be hardworking for my future. May god bless me.....
By the way, the sauces that i taste just now, actually the colour is very nice but the taste still OK and good luck all of us.......go go fighting team@@
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